I m perfectly content being bad at those things Perfect being the operative word To try and be good at EVERYTHING would be illogical and impractical The needle burned into my nerves and produced screaming and language far fetched for a woman of my confidence How was it possible for me to scream such foulness But my weird dark secret was out I saw myself as a loser The Daily Observations of a Fat Girl on Her Journey To Try and Lose WeightWhen I reached the halfway point of this book I had a hard choice to makekeep speeding through since I was enjoying it so much or slow down and savor it The style is very conversational and some entries are short and of a daily log while other entries recount experiences or thoughts on many different topics I found so much to be inspired by especially since Eve was so open and raw with her life. Reading about Eve s journey was both joyful and painful Some of her days were full of happiness where everything lined up and there were sunshine and rainbows aplenty Otherays were full of frustrations that never seemed to end.

After turning 41 Eve decides to chronicle her efforts to lose weight Every day is a different reason to keep up her struggle to eat less candy eat less donuts and go for a walk This river of consciousness memoir details her struggles with morbid obesity infertility raising two autistic boys and battling depression The book is sometimes funny sometimes heartbreaking and always real Excerpt from I turned 41 years old a few weeks ago This birthday hit me in a big way I weigh about 330 pounds Because of my weight I have had problems with my menstrual period A sensitive gynecologist told me in passing that I was barren I have tried to have a baby since I married Antonio in 2015 I take progesterone shots the pills the Clomid Nothing And it s all because of my 330 pounds It s all because of me It s all because I am a failure at self control and eating right I am a failure at daily exercise I am a failure at life I am a failure at becoming a mother I am a failure at being a woman If I wasn t so busy working full time and being a stepmom to two amazing boys I could get super depressed about this But on occasion when I have a moment to myself these thoughts rumble around my addled mind I have wanted to give up trying to have a baby As much as I want the joy of having a baby the pain of not having a baby is overwhelming And so I stopped taking my monthly progesterone shots because shots aren t fun But without them I find myself endlessly bleeding January in addition to being the advent of my 41st birthday was also a time for the never ending flu bronchitis and non stop menstrual bleeding Imagine being feverish and coughing so much that giant clots of blood fall out of your body That was January Finally I had the presence of mind to awaken from my cycle of misery and ask my husband to shoot progesterone into my hip It had been a while I laid sideways at the end of the bed while he prepared the needle I tried to distract myself with my phone He felt for my waist with his large calloused hands He has to find the top of the waist then spread his hand back towards my butt and put the needle in a muscle that resides at the top of my buttox Instead of putting the needle into the muscle he put it into a nerve in my hip It felt like fire I screamed I yelled I swore He pulled it out and put it in the right place but the place where he put the needle still burned and something about the needle penetrating the nerve unleashed every horrible feeling I d been trying to hide from him I sobbed and cried out I m such a loser Over and over again I m a loser I think you have to know me to know the depth of the strangeness of those words I have never been accused of self deprecation or a lack of self confidence I loathe self deprecation And I don t see the point in pretending to lack self confidence I am pretty good at most things And if I m not and cruelty by those who should have been caring I think many people will relate to this book because most people have this roller coaster type experience I felt comfort so many times knowing that I wasn t alone in some of the things I ve experienced and in some of the choices I ve made There were times in reading where I felt like Eve was being WAY too hard on herself which meant I had to seriously consider if I was being too hard on myself as well We beat ourselves up and wonder why everyone else seems to have it together The reality is that everyone struggles every single day to live up to their potential whether it is social spiritual physical and so on Here are some of the topics I really enjoyed1 Body image the reality that larger women can be and feel beautiful and sexy The reality that someone might love their body and not need to be reminded by every helpful neighbor that diets exist 2 Perception how our personality affects our physical characteristics 3 Family dynamics the ups and downs of trying to be a wife and mother4 Dolly Parton this section was really tender and beautiful5 Gospel topics I loved reading Eve s insights particularly about the woman in the Bible with an issue of blood. I could say a lot there were so many things to think about I am looking forward to books by Eve she is amazing The Daily Observations of a Fat Girl on Her Journey To Try and Lose Weight Delightfully honest I enjoyed reading about the daily highs and lows from Eve s perspective Her personality and sense of humor shined throughout I was able to connect with her on many of her stories because they were raw and human I also loved how each chapter was a surprise like What is she going to talk about today I think everyone can find something relatable in Eve s book from stories of parenting to struggles in making healthy choices The Daily Observations of a Fat Girl on Her Journey To Try and Lose Weight I feel like I should thank the author for this intimate glimpse into her life This memoir is real and gritty and touching in ways many weight loss journals aren t and I loved every moment I found myself wanting to cry out Me too. I know just how you feel over and over Body image is a subject that is difficult to discuss with your closest friends so I have to give accolades to Genesis Eve Garcia for the bravery to put this all out there in a way that few could Bravo Now to buy this book you won t regret it The Daily Observations of a Fat Girl on Her Journey To Try and Lose Weight I m a friend of this author so of course I loved it She s raw and real and it was fun reading a book when I know the real life characters for a change The Daily Observations of a Fat Girl on Her Journey To Try and Lose Weight